I'm Back!

It's been almost two months since I've last updated this blog, and I am really sorry for the inconsistency. The reason for not updating you guys s the unexpected arrival of problems, which made my head go spin.

By the way, I've back to school since November from our sembreak. though the whole back-to-school thing was just like an extended vacation, except for the first week I guess because some of our exams are scheduled on those dates. But for the succeeding weeks, programs are everywhere plus we have to prepare for our annual high school days celebration - enough to cause irregular or no classes at all. And besides, most of my classmates join the cheer-dancing competition, which left only nine nonparticipants - including me. And because we are few, we often have no classes for the entire day. But when the actual celebration/competition came, the practices, sacrifices, and no classes days are all worth it - because we won the championship! Yhey! Seniors, no. 1!

Oh! I remember, we are now down to the last month of the year - December. And yes, it's Christmas "vacation", too. You know I've just noticed, this school year has the most 'no classes mode'. And I don't know if that's a good or a bad thing. Uhm, what do you think?

And before I forget, I want to greet everyone a SUPER DUPER HAPPY and MERRY CHRISTMAS. Let us not forget that this is Jesus' special day. And so, we must show Him how much we are thankful to have Him as our Savior. And also, never forget to greet Him a Happy Happy Birthday!

Uhm...something flashed on my mind, graduation is fast approaching. And I can't stop my tears from falling whenever I realized that my high school life will soon end. Well I guess, all I need to do is to enjoy every second left that I'll be in my dearest PNHS. But how could that be if problems won't leave me?...

Will I Fail This Battle?

Below is a love poem, which I made. Try to read it, it's quite okay : )

A LOVE SO TRUE

All I ever wanted was a glance from you

I'm an avid fan of whatever you do

I never knew how I felt a love so true

But believe me, this love was meant for us two.

A smile which makes my entire world stops

Shaping my day nice with those tantalizing eyes

A perfect nose giving me a sun that shines

Oh! Whenever I stare at you I see a paradise.

As I turn my back, I saw your shoe

Staring at me I knew it was you

You held my hand, and whispered "I Love You"

Holding my tears, I thanked God for giving us a love so true.

Love...Admiration...Do you think these are vital for a journey? I really can't tell...

Though, I actually have this crush on someone. But I know that "our story" would not be a happy-ending one - not like my poem. Because in the first place, it is really not 'our' but just 'me'. You know? The feeling isn't mutual at all, I am only living on my own fantasy. There is no way he would appreciate me, not even throwing just a glance on me. 

I am still left with the question I've raised earlier. Is love or admiration vital for a journey? Because if the answer is "yes", I am certain I'll fail this battle.

Oh! It’s Sembreak

 

Students always feel glad whenever semestral break fills the air. They feel free from their daily school works – free from their terror teachers…

But why is it that happiness won’t visit me now that sembreak is here? This is the 12^th time that I’m having such break since I went to school, but I assure you that this is the first time I’ve encounter such sentiment. It feels like being at school is want my whole system wants ,rather than staying at home doing nothing but to sit down and rest.

Strange isn’t it? But that really is what I feel, and I don’t think there’s something wrong with that. Do you?

Well, maybe the fact that I am a graduating student gives a valid reason for me to feel this way…

Days are fast approaching; graduation day is coming… Highschool is the BEST feature in my sixteen years of journey here on Earth. I am very certain of that. And I can’t imagine what feelings would be when the ‘G’ day came. I’ll be missing my classmates, I swear! They’ve been a precious part of my journey. That’s why, if possible, I want to spend every second, every minute, and every hour of my time with them. Same is true with my teachers. The smiles…the giggles…the laughs we’ve made together will be a great part of my being. I do not want to waste any chances of spending a moment with them.

That shows why I consider sembreak as a very long, boring and dull period of time. Instead of staying at home, I should be bonding with my classmates and my teachers by now. We should make every moment as happy as possible; because our time being together will soon lasts…

; (

My Armors...My Gem...My Clowns...My FRIENDS!

Life really is cruel. You can never handle its weights by your own hands. You need someone to assist you in lifting those weights up.

Every journey has its challenges; challenges that can either be too easy or too hard. For those cases of too hard challenges, one always needed someone to give her a helping hand. And who else could offer his/her hand, if you don't have a family to count on, than your FRIENDS : )

Friends serve as my armors whenever I'll enter a battle. They protect me from those deadly weapons that could end my journey. They do everything to have me shield from those bad vibes that could threaten me.

These precious people also resemble a gem. They make me feel glamorous and special, whenever I'm with them. And they shine the most during the dim moments of my journey.

They are also my personal clowns. They cheer me up every time a frown is pinned on my face. They make me laugh during those times I wanted to give up.

I am not sure how long could I continue my journey in this land. But I am certain that with the presence of my friends, this journey would turn to be a magical trip of my life...

Meet the Real Me

On October 12, 1995, a bouncing baby girl was born. She had her dad's eyes and lips but her teeny weeny nose was a perfect copy of her mom's...

Life was never easy for me. I have to stand firm and be brave just to survive in this cruel world. I need to learn how to extend my patience, to cope with the people around me. I must master the life of being independent...of being ALONE. You must be wondering why...right?


Well, you will never understand why unless we were on the same boat.



I am a product of a broken family. Both my parents now have their HAPPY families, while I was left with the guidance of my ever-so-caring grandma.

Like I've said, life was never easy for me. When I was a little kid, I could still remember how my playmates would tease me. They keep on telling me how poor am I for I don't have my parents by my side. And every time they do that, I am left with no choice but to CRY;(





Good thing my grandma is always there to cheer me up. She never fails to make me feel special. It is because of her that I've realized, I need to be brave! It will never help to show others my weakness...


With that principle in my heart, I continued to face every challenges that life would throw on me. I consider everyday an adventure of my everlasting journey.

Hello! I'm Crystal Nicole A. Baltazar. My friends call me "Nicx", while others simply call me "Nicole'. I am now a 4th year student of the Pangasinan National High School, and I am proud to share that I belong to the top class, the IV-A (Benjamin Franklin).


I made my own blog to show everyone that being a product of a broken family isn't a reason to a journey. Instead, let it be your strength to face the obstacles of LIFE. let it be your guide through the darkness of your way...


This blog is about my battle to search for my true self. This is my everlasting journey to continue LIFE...